2.17.2007

#53 - The waddle

I hate that when I'm this heavy I waddle. You know the walk, somewhere between the walk of a pregnant woman and a duck. No disrespect to pregnant women, you can't help that you waddle. I, on the other hand, am the cause of my waddling saunter. I mean really, I feel like a Weeble. Remember Weebles? "Weebles wobble but they don't fall down." Those toy people with the rounded base, so they wobble around when you play with them. That's pretty much how feel. When I'm walking around, and I think someone is watching, I try desperately hard to walk perfectly straight. That really irritates me, that I worry about how I look when I walk. I know the source of my Charlie Chaplin-esque walk, it's my big belly. To support the Buddha belly, I think I lean back a bit; therefore when I walk forward, I waddle. How stupid! And I know that the more tired I am, the more pronounced the waddle. I guess we get lazy lugging all this fat around.

I know this reason fits into a long line of my - fat - makes - me - self - conscious - self - esteem - issues, but still, it really annoys me! I mean don't I have enough to worry about being fat, now I have to worry about the fact that I waddle like a duck, too. Remember the days of being taught to walk perfectly straight, being able to place a book on your head without it falling? I think I would fail miserably at that task right now. But I think that's what makes us so self-conscious. We envision runway models, tall, lean, poised and able to walk confidently in a perfectly straight line. I guess we're all aspiring to attain that confident model walk. But then when you step out all confident, thinking you could do anything, then you start to waddle; it kind of crushes those poised aspirations. I guess that's what it really comes down to. I just don't feel poised or elegant when I'm this heavy. How can I be? I think the words 'poised' and 'elegant' go hand in hand with 'long' and 'lean', not 'pudgy' and 'stout'. So I guess reason #53 should be, more eloquently, that I hate that it's impossible to be poised and elegant when I'm fat.

5 comments:

Vickie said...

I saw your comment on AFG and stopped by to check out your blog - I ended up starting at the beginning and reading all the way through. I liked MANY,MANY of your posts - favorites happened to be #51 and #52 - because they are things that I have been thinking about lately. I am on the tail end of my journey - nearly to goal - and #51 and #52 are (still) as true for me today as they were at the beginning - still working on them!

PS - One of my yoga instructors was just talking about people that walk "from the hips" and perfectly straight - and according to her - this is bad for the hip sockets - they are meant to m-o-v-e - so your "waddle" might be better for preserving your hip joints long term.

CactusFreek said...

Hey, awesome blog!!
It's weird, but i'm always concious of that waddle, and i try very hard not to do it. I don't know if i'm stopping it or making it worse! lol

Anonymous said...

One of my yoga instructors was just talking about people that walk "from the hips" and perfectly straight - and according to her - this is bad for the hip sockets - they are meant to m-o-v-e - so your "waddle" might be better for preserving your hip joints long term.

I'm sorry, but being 100+ pounds overweight is going to be more taxing on your ankle, knee and hip joints - not to mention your lower back - than any amount of walking from the hips.

Anonymous said...

I actually LIKE the waddle. Im getting so fat these days that its hard to hide but, but my husband loves it.

Ive put on quite a bit of weight thanks to my husband likeing it and me not caring.. now its starting to really weigh me down.

Im not sure what Ill do but if he likes me this way, I can keep on eating thats for sure.

Anonymous said...

My waddle is getting bad. In the last year I have gained 120 lbs, due to a condition and its very embarrassing. My belly is really starting to get in the way