#27 - Stomach Rolls

It's been far too long since I updated my blog. I've just been busy, busy, busy! I've been doing the whole online dating thing lately - ok at least the online meeting new people thing - it hasn't got to the actual dating yet. But now it seems I may have the opportunity to meet some guys in person, and that is what inspired this blog entry.

I hate that I have stomach rolls! Eeeewwwww! The sound of it is just gross - stomach rolls! I neverminded having a little stomach pooch, but outright rolls - gross! Nothing wrong with girls being soft and curvy, but to actually have rolls? What I'm really nervous about is actually getting naked in front of other people right now. The last time I had sex I was much more fit - still heavy, but not this obese. I just wonder how a guy would react to my body at this point. Although I have to consider, if he likes me with my clothes on, he already knows what he'd be getting into, so he would probably like me without my clothes too. Who knows?

I guess this falls into the category of yet another chick-body-conscious issue. It seems even perfect girls have hangups about something wrong with their bodies. I clearly know I have a lot of weight to lose, but should this stop me from having any fun now? If I find a man accepting of me at this size, why shouldn't I go for it? I mean what do I think will happen? Go on a date, good times, laughter, fun, a little kissing, a little stroking, make out, off comes the clothes, guy says "dear God I had no idea you were this fat". LOL Probably not! I guess I just need to get over it and just go for it! I'm the only one holding me back!!!