1.30.2006

#5 - Being judged on looks alone

I hate that fat people are assumed to be lazy, underachieving people. I'm a PhD graduate student at an Ivy league university, does that sound like a person who's lazy and underachieving? I always strive for the best in myself in my academic and professional career. I've worked hard, and my work has paid off. The only aspect of my life where I appear to be underachieving is my weight. I've struggled with weight since mid high school - this doesn't make me a slacker. But I hate that in the future I will be judged for job positions not only on my merits but also on my appearance (overweight people are much less likely to be hired). You know the adage 'Don't judge a book by its cover', does anyone follow this anymore? In our Hollywood-obsessed culture, thin is in! We've all (myself included) been brainwashed into believing that what's on the outside IS a reflection of the inside. That must make Jessica Simpson one of the hardest working, nicest people in America (not!). I wish I was on a level playing field with everyone else. Until I get to a more normal weight, I will have to struggle with the stereotypes.

Well on a much happier note - my first week on Weight Watchers has gone great. I stuck to the program pretty well (a few cheats though), and ended up losing 5.4 pounds this week. Yeah me! I think working out has really helped a lot. I worked out with DDR 4 times this past week. This week is starting off well too - I didn't spend all my flex points over the weekend either! And I managed to work out both Sat and Sun! I hate to say it, but I really hope (and almost expect) to lose another 5 pounds this week. I'll try not to be disappointed if I lose less. It's just that once you really decide to work at losing weight, you really want it NOW! I'm so impatient. I know I have about 140+ pounds to lose, and this will take time. How's about two months - j/k. OK, I know that's not enough time. But I hope to keep consistently losing until I get to goal.

4 comments:

Kat E said...

You go, girl! You should definitely be proud of the exercise--doing *any* kind of activity with some consistency is a major accomplishment in itself, IMO.

karaokekitty17 said...

That's what I figured. Anything to get me off the couch! I still want to get a membership at the Y so I can go swimming too.

Chrysanthemum said...

Hey... congrats on a great first week! I'm with kat... consistent anything as far as activity goes is a big accomplishment.

lolita.lee.love said...

Hi, I'm also a Yale student and I can attest to the fat phobia here. We're a school full of elitists/perfectionists. I can't even tell you how many students (male included) have eating disorders. I'm sure most girls are on a diet. It's hard to even find overweight/obese people on campus (I think they seclude themselves =/). But this is my experience with the undergraduates. Hopefully things get better in grad school!