#14 - Dating
Dating propects are not so good for the ample proportioned. I hate the double-standard though. Fat girls never seem to get the guy, but fat guys always seem to find someone to date. I hate this! I've seen really ugly and/or fat guys with cute skinny girls. What gives? You never see a fat chick with a hot stud! And the thing is you'd expect fat guys to be attracted to fat girls - not so! Fat guys seem extra appalled by fat girls - maybe a reminder of their own obesity.
I haven't dated in a LONG time. I won't even go into specifics. I'll only say that I actually can't recall the details of the last time I got laid. How sad! Don't get me wrong - I've had offers, only they were from very scary and/or disgusting men! I still have standards. My last boyfriend was model beautiful, so my Mr. Right has very large shoes to fill!
I've heard of these bars called Goddess Bars, where heavy girls can meet men who are interested in fat girls. I'm reluctant though, I don't plan on being heavy forever, and I'm a little scared of these chubby chasers. It sounds kind of fetishistic. But I guess it'd be a way to get back on the horse, so to speak.
Alternatively, I can just lose weight, and find my Mr. Right. You know, I really want to find a man that doesn't care about weight, etc., but finding a man period is impossible when you're fat. It's like I have to lose weight to find a guy, and then determine if he's open to larger women. What a weird mess!